Buddhism does not see the world itself as an illusion, but the emotions and concepts we hold which provoke our thought of as being illusions. Therefore dreams are not thought of as being illusions, but depict the illusions of our everyday experience of life. The very nature of dreams are expressive of the complicated realm of fears, longings and mental concepts we are deeply enmeshed in. Nightmares especially show how deeply involved our waking self is with the internal world of passionate feelings and imagery.

Example: I am trapped in a bricked room with no way out and I shout for somebody to help me. Then either a big bird or a creature with long arms tried to catch me, and I scream.

My flat mates used to help me, as I would wake the whole house with my screams. They describe my screams as blood curdling.

When I awoke I would be extremely upset, heart pounding and sometimes crying. Twice I woke up sitting on the windowsill trying to open the window, and as I was three floors up you can imagine this was not a very pleasant experience.

Another dream I have is that somebody is chasing me or attacking me, and I try to scream but nothing comes out of my mouth. (Karen S.)

Exameple: I was walking around alone when I found myself in a graveyard which was half under water, like a paddy field. It was dusk and as I looked at the gravestone each one had engraved on it S. J. SMITH - my name - nothing else. The dark water moved slowly between the stones - lapping round them.

I woke terrified and couldn't stretch out my hand to turn the light on. (Sarah S.)

I'm so confused...

Example: Three men with clubs were chasing me but never actually caught me as I believe I woke in terror.

I was determined to tell myself it was only a dream and the next night as they were chasing me I remembered it was only a dream and lost all fear - stopped running.

I turned to face them and said "This is only a dream, you can't hurt me," and with that as they came closer they faded into nothing and I never saw them again. (Mr. S. C.)

The examples show the sense of reality existing for the dreamer at the time of the nightmare. In fact the terror is often only banished slowly by the dreamer telling themselves that it "was only a dream"!

The last example in a simplified way shows the liberation that arises by recognising the source of what we had taken to be reality. Buddhism is saying that much of the workings and influence of our inner world goes unrecognised, so we are an unconscious prisoner of our mind and emotions.

Usually one takes all ones emotions, ones thoughts and physical sensations so personally, and as a sort of reality. Yet no thought is ever the thing it is about. We think of the future sometimes for instance and might go through agonies of worry. But the thoughts are not the events that follow. And when the events themselves arrive, we can respond to them in countless different ways. Therefore to take thoughts and emotions as if they were real in a stable sense is an illusion. Recognising this not as a philosophical concept but as an experience is like waking up.

Another form of awakening occurs within the experience of Liberation itself. It is the awakening from the expeience of thought and the mental world. This also pertains to dreams in that within dreams we are totally immersed and identified with this internal mental life. The following example explains this.

Exameple: For some weeks I had been practising a meditation in which I slowed my breath. Then suddenly one day my thinking stopped.

What this felt like is extremely difficult to describe because all of us have lived in this world of thoughts and emotions all our life. We are so immersed we don't even recognise it - rather like the story of the fish who doesn't know what you are talking about when you mention water. It only knows it has been in the water if it jumps or is lifted out one day. This is how it was for me.

I had never known that "I", "me" could exist without thoughts. The freedom was wonderful, almost as if I had arrived at a different world or universe, and was looking back at what I had thought was the only way of life.

To have this alternative gave me a new way of responding to life, because thoughts are so clumsy and can only deal with tiny pieces of experience. So our view of things is limited to what we can think with words. Beyond that are immense spreads of experience not limited to defining concepts. (Mary P.)

Dreams often express this theme of an awakening, especially in people using some forms of self inquiry. The following dream and description depicts this.

Example: Have just woken from another of my recent unusual dreams. In it I was first in a street being manhandled by a group of rowdy men. I did nothing to defend myself or fight back, and they pushed me onto the ground and poured spirits, alcohol, over me and into my mouth - saw this in the film The Elephant Man.

Then I awoke alone in a room. Or perhaps it is more correct to say I came to, because I felt as if I had been unconscious for some time. I didn't know the room or where I was. I had the sense it was partly to do with business or a shop. The phone kept riThen I awoke alone in a room. Or perhaps it is more correct to say I came to, because I felt as if I had been unconscious for some time. I didn't know the room or where I was. I had the sense it was partly to do with business or a shop. The phone kept ringing and the calls were for me, and I wondered how people knew where I was because I didn't know myself. nging and the calls were for me, and I wondered how people knew where I was because I didn't know myself.

This dream may not seem much in itself, but in linking with some powerful feelings I am meeting in everyday life it becomes part of some inner process working in me. This is because I keep experiencing the feeling of having woken up. The only way to describe this is to say that I honestly thought I was Pete who has been born, grown up, had children. I took all his worrries and pains, all the events of his life so seriously. I was totally involved in it all. But now I feel as if I am somethng that has always lived. It went to sleep and its dream was Pete. While it dreamt of being Pete it was utterly involved in the events of Pete's - my - life as if they were real.

But now I wake up to realise the importance given to them was unreal. This is almost exactly like waking from any deeply experienced dream.

On waking the dream is not unreal in that it was an experience, but the attitude toward what happened is quite different. (Pete W.)

Various forms of meditation or practice are used to aid this process of waking up in life and in dreams, principal among them is Vipassana, which aims at constant self-awareness. This form of self witnessing gradually allows one to catch oneself in the act of getting lost in fantasy, in thoughts, in the ever shifting tides of emotion and sexual drive. It is not an act of denial, but an awareness that enables insight into behaviour to arise.

Such self-awareness enables one to slowly avoid getting caught in the waking "dream" of long sojourns into such things as guilt, depression, and emotinal pain arising from childhood patterns. This is because one becomes aware of just how such internal events arise or are triggered, and one can make a choice of whether one wishes to "re-play" them again, rather like deciding whether to play a cassette. Perseverance with the process cannot help but produce an entrance into areas of experience that had been deeply unconscious. Ones life history is brought to consciousness piece by piece.

There is also the attempt to remain in the self-aware state even while dreaming. This is not an attempt to control or repress the action of dreaming, but to "see throught" it to the underlying processes creating the images.

In the Buddhist literature the story of Milarepa tells how he meditated for eight years alone in a cave. Through these years of discipline he was able to remain lucid while asleep and dreaming. He says:

By night in my dreams I could traverse the summit of Mt. Meru to its base - and I saw everything clearly as I went. Likewise in my dreams I could multiply myself into hundreds of personalities, all endowed with the same powers as myself. Each of my multiplied forms could traverse space and go to some Buddha Heaven, listen to the teachings there, and then come back and teach the Dharma to many persons. I could also transform my physical body into a mass of blazing fire, or into an expanse of flowing or calm water. Seeing that I had obtained infinite phenomenal powers even though it be but in my dreams, I was filled with happiness and encouragement.

The awakening and the penetration of consciousness into what were the dark places of our being, leads to the realisation that in a way that is difficult to accept until we experience for ourselves, we are the Creator of our own inner life, and Co-creator in the external world. Our dreams are created unconsciously out of mental and emotinal factors that are usually deeply buried.

For instance a person may have had a traumatic expeience in childhood which leads to he constantly being afraid of closeness in a relatinship. But the memory of the original event, and the powerful emotions leading to decisions about behaviour, are not longer conscious enough to review. They therefore give rise to reactions and dreams which may be puzzling, but are usually rationalised by the dreamer.

In the widest sense, one is creating ones own life and dreams, even though being unconscious of how and why. The penetration of consciousness into these realms of hidden behaviour enables the process of creativity to become more directed.

Of course this self-formation needs to be understood in connection with Buddhism's aim of dissolving the rigid boundaries of the ego, and finding insight into the illusory nature of our self image. We therefore need to realise that self-formation means not only creating our own inner life and responses to the external world more capably, but also the ability to dissove what we have created, to realise that the source of all form is the Void.

Example: I felt a very real power working in my body, but could not define it. The reslt was that my breathing slowed down until it stopped - how long for I do not know. This produced an experience of personal thoughts and feelings slowing to a standstill also, leaving stillness. Accompanying this was the sense of myself being in an ocean.

As I floated in the ocean I began to be lifted by a large wave. I expected to get to the top of the wave and plunge down again. At this point the breath was taken in and it stopped. So when I came to the top of the wave it was so immense I floated at its peak on and on forever.

In trying to describe this I have to use the mage of a giant mural painted on a cliff face. The mural has trees and grass, animals and humans. I am one of the humans and have stepped out of the mural to become three dimensional. Being three dimensional is everyday life. When I reach the top of the wave and the usual ebb and flow of breath and consciousness stops, I step back into the mural again. I face into the background of life again and disappear.

This is wonderful. I sense this is what happens when one dies. The personal sense of self recedes and there is a blissful merging with all things. I want to stay there forever. I want to go to sleep into this ocean of blissfulness. I feel that I could stay there for a hundred years, and if I then took a breath I would emerge from the mural again and take up my everyday life just as I left it off, except that events will have moved on. (P.D.)

The dissolution is Nirvana. The ability to dissolve self in this way may not be possible until we can master or penetate the processes that work toward our formation. The secrets of our creation are in the unconscious, the mysterious world of dreams. Thus the need to wake in sleep, or if not that, to wake up from the dream of our life.

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